How does the author character develop over the course of the essay shooting an elephant?

Early in the essay, Orwell claims that at the time of the events of the story, he was too young to know how to confront his own dilemma. Over the course of the story, as his dilemma becomes dramatized by the killing of the elephant, we learn about his fear of humiliation and how that motivates him to perform as though he is thoroughly confident and decisive. We further learn that this fear of humiliation is what Orwell feels is the driving force behind the entire British Empire.