The Catcher in the Rye
After Maurice beats him up, Holden does not kill himself because he does not want (a) to be in the cold ground with Allie; (b) to put his mother through the loss of another son: (c) people to stare at his gory remains.
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(c) people to stare at his gory remains
I didn't want a bunch of stupid rubbernecks looking at me when I was all gory.
The Catcher in the Rye