what does I wanted to ask him how i supposed to live with that word "suspicious" for a whole two weeks. How was I suposed to eat,work,study? How could he send me home with that word. mean?

Babba has a white spot on his right lung. The overworked doctor mentions it is suspicious. The thought of cancer floods Amir's mind. Amir wonders how they can be sent home with the word suspicious and have to wait agonizing days to find out.