What are the conflicting feelings Lily is having about her mom ? ch 9

Despite her attempts not to think of her mother, Lily does so. Lily puts on her mother’s gloves, and she realizes how tight they feel. She realizes that soon she will outgrow them. Her mother is a cause of longing, guilt, and stress for Lily. Lily looks for a feeling that her mother stood inside the same walls of the Boatwright home.