True Belief Anonymous

I remember the first Tuesday I stepped into the hall of the church. The raucous noise of children playing was quickly quieted by Jake, our youth group leader, as he led fifty teenagers in solemn prayer. As everyone bowed their heads to pray, I could fell my skin crawl. Discomfort overwhelmed me. Although I had been to church almost every Sunday of my life, I had never been anything but sedentary in my faith. I hardly even believed, and I was surrounded by vehement believers.

As I continued to come to youth group, I realized that many of my religious ideas did not line up with the traditional Christian doctrines. I grew increasingly frustrated with my confusion during our lessons. My brain swirled with what I was supposed to believe as a Christian and what my heart told me was right. Once during our small group, our leaders began to bring up some of the sins teenagers face most. Among the list were homosexuality, premarital sex, and disobedience. As I listened to my leaders quote the Paul and James denouncing these sins in the Bible, I felt anger bubbling inside of me. Why is homosexuality wrong? How can it be, when it is just another type of love? Why are these things considered sins? Something in my soul caused a ferocity I...